The most important thing in the world to me right now is graduating. I have been in college far too long. It’s not that I have a desire to enter the “real world,” it’ s just that I’m tired of school.
Because graduating is important to me, I’m taking 21 credits this term. I have never been so busy in my life. I wake up at 6:50 every morning and I work out for 30 to 45 minutes. Then I go to work for about five hours. I sit in class for an hour, then I spend the next two or three typing papers or articles or trying to learn Korean. Then I go to a two-hour language class and get drilled in the aforementioned language.
Sometimes, I get to eat.
On Tuesdays it’s even worse. I go from nine in the morning until nine at night. I have perhaps an hour in between my classes, all of which are long. I have three papers a week, in addition to planning two large-scale projects for University Studies. I still hate U. Studies by the way, even though I do like my current Sophomore Inquiry instructor, Grace Dillon and the material we’re learning.
I’m exhausted and I’m keeping a countdown until spring break. I have a great vacation planned and it is just about all I can think about to keep sane.
School is not the only thing in my life eating time and mental energy. I have applied for a job overseas and I’m getting nervous because I haven’t heard from the company yet. If I don’t hear from them by the end of February, I need to start looking for a job that will keep me happy until I’m ready to settle into law school. Not a fun prospect.
Speaking of law school, I must register, pay for, study for and then take the Law School Admission Test. That is neither fun, nor easy.
I’m also a maid of honor, which as I have previously illustrated, drains mental energy on an unprecedented scale. We went cake-tasting this weekend. Guess who didn’t get to taste any cake? I am also supposed to be thinking about bridesmaid’s dresses. Those of you who have been bridesmaids know that this is something that is not fun to think about.
I have started going into my cornered animal thinking, where everyone is not necessarily out to get me, but their selfishness knows no bounds. For instance, I feel that some of my professors are under the impression that their class is the only class I am taking. This could be remedied by making the class one or two credits more important. Maybe I’m just taking too many classes.
Most days at 6:50, I just want to stay in bed and watch TV all day long, even though there’s nothing on. There are books that I want to read that have nothing to do with postmodernism, the history of cultural imperialism, the Korean language, films or Japanese internment. It’s not that these are unimportant topics. In fact, everyone should study them.
I just want some crap in my life. I’m on a diet and that means no chocolate chip cookies or Hershey’s kisses or even a dinner at Typhoon. I don’t have time to watch TV, not even Court TV! There’s an art exhibit I don’t want to miss in Seattle, but I don’t think I have the time or the money to see an exhibit of postmodern Japanese art that probably won’t come to this area of the country for a long time. I guess this is just the price I’ll have to pay if I want to be a rich lawyer later on down the line. But I don’t have to like it and I reserve the right to complain about student life whenever I want.